SasuHina65

Finding Inspiration/Motivation

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Cringe and Shiver by SasuHina65, literature

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Cringe and Shiver

That feeling of being nauseous, That face you make of disgust and fear, How your body curls up and shakes. What you did, what you say, what you saw Cannot be undone nor unseen. Discomfort and uncomfortable As if you're in the dark, cold room... Cringe and shiver at the thoughts You want erased, the event(s) you wish Could be undone in the past. Shiver like the drug addict on the corner, With eyes so droopy and gloomy, bags underneath. Taunt, taunt, taunt you'll never sleep; But when you do, Cringe and shiver you'll be doing as you count sheep... Mummified sheep go 'baa' in the night Your dreams into nightmares Based on your thoughts Wake

Digging My Own Grave by SasuHina65, literature

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Digging My Own Grave

Here I am opening my eyes again to the darkness facing Death. Here I go again getting another chance to live again, the light hurts. I'm nauseated, lost, and in pain. I've been through this many times and I can't seem to care to come back, but I know I hate this so much. This is the fourth time, the hundredth time I have entered the hospital facing death and Death himself; and God always seems to give me another chance, but one day he won't and it'll be too late. Every time I lay there in my hospital bed, I'm just digging my own grave. Just to bury myself with my friends and family weeping to me. It's not worth it, but maybe one day I can c

When Will You Be There? by SasuHina65, literature

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When Will You Be There?

When I entered this world You had choices: Murder me, to free me. (You freed me) To keep me in your arms Or to put me in someone else arms. (You kept me in your arms) Years go by and by, on and on- forward Behind my back, with lack of awareness I don't know what goes on for me Or the possible lies that betray me Because of my early youth. Even in front of my very eyes the story goes on. As a teenager, I open my eyes like Adam and Eve Things become clearer, I ate the apple off the tree. But as I see life for what what it truly is... I see YOU for who you truly are. I can't tell if you're being framed upon Two sides to every story they say T

Mystery Beyond the Mask by SasuHina65, literature

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Mystery Beyond the Mask

In school she's the outcast. Even in college. In ways she's left out. But you'll get nothing of her. No one knows of her hobbies. What does she do outside of school? Normal things during the day- to nothing. But at night, things become a fright. She always wears a skull mask to college. She never takes it off until told to. No one knows what hides behind that mask. The silence behind it breathes a story... A story that may never be told. But on or off, the face reveals nothing. At night, she sits there...waiting. When time strikes, the mask is on and she's gone. This soft breezy night. She goes for a lonely walk. For every thirsty guy on

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Cringe and Shiver by SasuHina65, literature

Literature

Cringe and Shiver

Digging My Own Grave by SasuHina65, literature

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Digging My Own Grave

When Will You Be There? by SasuHina65, literature

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When Will You Be There?

Mystery Beyond the Mask by SasuHina65, literature

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Mystery Beyond the Mask

Uncomfortable in my Own Dome by SasuHina65, literature

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Uncomfortable in my Own Dome

All my life I grew into someone unique Pushed out of the crowd Categorized as different. Shy, coy, timid, quiet, artistic, etc. All these adjective/descriptions That describe me. I am home, but not in my Own dome... I travel a home away To a place mostly unknown To a home so new To enter a dome That is unique like me Finally, I'm home with people like me. On my first day To 2 weeks Only 5 friends (and 2 RAs) But I slightly feel at home Yet, I'm in my own dome all alone In my own bubble(and world). I don't need them all To befriend me I, the outcast, the lonely one. How is this possible? I'm uncomfortable in my own dome.

Death is Waiting For Me [in the Future] by SasuHina65, literature

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Death is Waiting For Me [in the Future]

I was good. But now I'm bad. When I'm mad. I make the world sad. My devious plots, Let's the body rot. And the cannibal way, I stir you in pots. I let it boil, I let it broil. I drink thick red wine. For I won't let it spoil. Tricking, deceiving, and receiving. It adds to my pleasure. I do it for fun, But it never reaches its measure. But that was years ago. I've grown tired and so and so. Retired of my pay-less job. I sit in my house and I sob. The police still don't know, Because I've never shown. I've grown weary of my doings and so forth. What are my doings even worth? Death... I'm a grown man. I do what I can.

When I Say by SasuHina65, literature

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When I Say

V1- You and I together More than friends forever. Our love is all right. But there's one thing that might... It's not me, it's you. And I don't know what to do. When we're together, you get touchy. Certain times it's lovely. But when you go too far, I've made my call~ Ch- When I say NO, I mean it. When I say STOP, believe it. And when you do, I can see it- Our future's bright~ V2- Ring, ring. I call. You answer, thank God. I could talk to you any day. You're wild. I'm calm. Even a psychic could read my palm. And see my feelings and it's revealing. It's not me, it's you. And I don't know that to do. You always talk with n

Always By Myself by SasuHina65, literature

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Always By Myself

I'm always by myself. Just me and nobody else. I don't need anyone or do I? I'm always by myself. Just me and myself. Don't need anyone else or (do I? x2) Ooh~. All up in the room. People in the class. When will it end soon? Socialize my (a- x2) I don't want to be alone, But I want to be alone (anyway) But it wouldn't even matter 'cause- I'm always by myself. Me, myself, and I~. I'm always by myself. I wouldn't dare cry~. (Cause) I'm always by myself. *'self echoes* Even with the friends I have. I still walk on a lonely path. And I~ could almost care less. *less echoes* Other fish are in the sea. But they always swim ri

Autumn's Abyss by SasuHina65, literature

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Autumn's Abyss

"Fall... Autumn is coming..."-SH65/PAG My family and I ride down the right side lane. I gaze up at the cool colors of green. It was like a cold forest. Dry and empty. I look away and gaze again. To see a moderate-warm color of yellow. Golden halls passed as we went by. Then suddenly the colors get warmer. Already passing the colors of green and yellow, We face the orange abyss. The colors are dateless. With a hint of red and yellow leaves, There was mainly orange. Deeper into this beautiful abyss. I can't explain, but I'm happy...[in awe] A land full of stones where the gone lays sleep. We visit a family member. Once loved an

It's Not About the Good Looks by SasuHina65, literature

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It's Not About the Good Looks

Is it beauty that attracts men? Is it handsome guys that attracts women? Is it the curvy bodies, the skinniness? Is it the muscles, the abs that attracts attention? Well, let me tell you. It's not about the good looks. This is no TV world. Good looks doesn't give you what you want. You have to earn it, earn it all. Good looks doesn't help put food on the table. Good looks is only part of getting anyone. Personality gives it all. Charm is partial. Good smiles, sparkling eyes, great hair- Will get you nowhere. Sympathy, sense of humor, faithfulness, respect- Will get you somewhere and someone. It's not about the good looks You'

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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied

Aug 27
United States
Deviant for 15 years
She / Her

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Hello, my name is Phynissia or Perida.
I'm currently idle on drawing and art (due to major art block and lack on motivation/inspiration). Here are some facts you can learn about me.
Facts:
1. I love anime
2. I love kpop (and other music genres, but kpop owns all for me)
3. I'm quite shy, but get to know me I'm crazy in a good way
4. I have type 1 diabetes.
5. I'm no longer in college because of finance struggles
6. I AM currently working and trying to get back on my feet to face the world I was brought into and raised into.
7. I also write poems, and every now and then, stories too.
8. Also for my icon up there, in the top left corner. That was created by sarilain.deviantart.com/ *forgot how to do the icon thing*

Favourite Movies

Don't have a fave, just likes.

Favourite TV Shows

Steven Universe, Adventure Time, Bizarre Foods, Man v. Food, Worse Cooks, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Chopped

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Too many to list

Favourite Books

The Chronicles of Vladimir Tod, etc

Other Interests

Anime/Manga, Drawing, Video Games, KPOP, Food, Poetry/Writing, Helping Others Sympathetically

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SasuHina65

Jun 3, 2020

Should I come back and post again? My skills haven't improved due to reasons...

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SasuHina65

Jun 3, 2020

I honestly can't remember the last time I logged into this account lmao 😅

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SasuHina65

Nov 29, 2015

Still Alive. I'm Not Dead.

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Yes, I'm still alive everyone. Where do I begin, how do I explain myself to this long absentee? Okay, I can't remember my last journal, so I don't know if I told you guys my story after I left college (from poor finances). I started losing all my hope in art and drawing. I went from a drawing maniac to a complete artist blocked hobo. To this day, I'm still rusty and trying my best to get my motivation & inspiration back. What kills me, I can mentally draw anything, but when it's time to do it physically, I draw blanks and crappy stuff. So, every blue moon, I'm putting down doodles on paper. (Even those come out crappy) Um, I will try t