Still Alive. I'm Not Dead.

Yes, I'm still alive everyone. Where do I begin, how do I explain myself to this long absentee?
Okay, I can't remember my last journal, so I don't know if I told you guys my story after I left college (from poor finances). I started losing all my hope in art and drawing. I went from a drawing maniac to a complete artist blocked hobo.

To this day, I'm still rusty and trying my best to get my motivation & inspiration back. What kills me, I can mentally draw anything, but when it's time to do it physically, I draw blanks and crappy stuff. So, every blue moon, I'm putting down doodles on paper. (Even those come out crappy)

Um, I will try to post more stuff or stuff I already drew and never posted on here. I might also clean up this account (or delete this one and start over with a new account). I have a hard time changing things or getting rid of things. So I will be fighting myself about cleaning the account or just deleting it and starting over. Because as I go back onto the memories of his account I left behind... I kinda suck at drawing and I didn't take art seriously. There is no telling what word I may have used in art and my drawings probably don't even match lol so that's a main reason why I want to start the account over and clean/edit it. I can say my drawing skills improved a bit over the really old drawings. (I was 13-14 then and I'm like 20 now)

But I also work now, so that may get in the way of trying to be creative and keep the creative juices flowing. In fact, I have to go get ready now...because I told myself I will come early for my boss from 1pm to 8pm and not just 3pm to 8pm. I may or may not write another journal later explaining my life while I was gone.