SasuHina65

Yes, I'm still alive everyone. Where do I begin, how do I explain myself to this long absentee?
Okay, I can't remember my last journal, so I don't know if I told you guys my story after I left college (from poor finances). I started losing all my hope in art and drawing. I went from a drawing maniac to a complete artist blocked hobo.

To this day, I'm still rusty and trying my best to get my motivation & inspiration back. What kills me, I can mentally draw anything, but when it's time to do it physically, I draw blanks and crappy stuff. So, every blue moon, I'm putting down doodles on paper. (Even those come out crappy)

Um, I will try to post more stuff or stuff I already drew and never posted on here. I might also clean up this account (or delete this one and start over with a new account). I have a hard time changing things or getting rid of things. So I will be fighting myself about cleaning the account or just deleting it and starting over. Because as I go back onto the memories of his account I left behind... I kinda suck at drawing and I didn't take art seriously. There is no telling what word I may have used in art and my drawings probably don't even match lol so that's a main reason why I want to start the account over and clean/edit it. I can say my drawing skills improved a bit over the really old drawings. (I was 13-14 then and I'm like 20 now)

But I also work now, so that may get in the way of trying to be creative and keep the creative juices flowing. In fact, I have to go get ready now...because I told myself I will come early for my boss from 1pm to 8pm and not just 3pm to 8pm. I may or may not write another journal later explaining my life while I was gone.

Hey guys, SH65 here!
Today, I finally decided to wrote a journal to you all.
So much has happened since my last journal post.
I'm not really going into details, but yesterday became a breaking point for me.

Enough to write a journal-like poem. Right now, I'm at school.
I have 6 hours or less until my next class. With no money ad nothing to eat :/
Sucks to live the college life and you're not rich, but poor.

Anyway, later on in the day, I shall post my little journal-poem!
And I also want to announce that I have a new OC.
It's a male, he is totally muscle-built and I just thought of a name.
It's Sasin!! Means God of Death in Korean. His nameless-name at first was Buff Death.
I'm going to use that name too. Mainly because it's true! He's Death-monster like...
And he's, well, BUFF. I was thinking of using my #1 OC, Perida and Sasin in a story together.

I wanna make a comic and/or animation with them...I feel that it would be so good...
That I immediately dreamed of a kick-azz video game for 'em.
But that's really it though...I would like a lot of things right about now.
They are:
-Money
-Food
-Frozen Yogurt (and to experience the taste of macarons)
-New clothes (thinking KPop style) ^3~

But, that's about it! T-T-Y-L~

Yup, just as it says...

Okay, so I've been offline for a while.
Why? Because I've been in the hospital!
Been in there since Monday night (about 11pm);
And I just checked out today (earlier).

Why was I in there?
Since I have Diabetes (Type2),
my blood sugar was like mega high
and I got sick. But I'm better now.

Well, except for this crazy pain I gained
yesterday morning >_<
I'm so upset and a bit depressed about this happening.
And I need to make a change.
Be more healthy.
I'm sure no one wants to be @ my funeral
knowing I was only 17 and 4 days old.

So, no more sodas and sugary, starchy, fatty...etc
foods and drinks. Water, sugar free, free foods and all.
Counting carbs and such. Anyway, that's all I have to say.

Besides the fact this is gonna be a challenge with my
diabetes. And my feelings are in a storm from several things.
But whatever, that's it. Bye~